PLEASE READ THESE :Y Monday, July 31, 2006Y
1:36 AM
... 假裝 ...
Just a GLANCE meant alot ... expression coming from e EYE dun lie ... guiltiness is found obviously in the eye .. that's include hatred and pityness ... but by the glance she gave me ... my heart thud loudly, like a drum ... i admit that i'm indeed a coward wid neither guts nor intergrity ... walking off wid a fast speed ... making myself looked so shag! i cant even stand up for myself ... I'm definitely a Loser, a real pathetic loser ...
not that i'm a sore loser ... but after the sight of her ... i find no reason why i LOSE ... maybe my brain isnt functioning well enough ... grumbled is what i'm doing now ... i'm still refusing to accept e fact that things turning out this way ... after all this clinging, my nightmare is ending soon ... realising the fact onli at this minutes, hope it isnt too late ... seems lyk a century to me ... been wondering what will my life be, if you had never stepped into it ...
enough of you and all the CRAPPY stuff u invented ! you are practically a stranger to me ... who will even pay special attention to a stranger ? think neither of us will ... you jolly well enjoy wid e path u choose ... and never ever to step into my life again ... Just hate e sight of you now ... you are worst than any imaginary stranger ... having the eagerness to sort the matter out ... after all this years ... finally i had e courage threwing away all those gift, pic and tickets that will remind mi of you ... the most important ring... it's now meaningless to me ...
shocked by the news ... when dad told us abt his health situation ... he will be undergoing an operation tml ... tuesday ... his heart problem isnt getting any better ... i did nothing but onli worsen it by doing things he usually objects ... i can see all those aging marks left behind by time ... the colour of his hair fading leaving onli white left ... Hope tml operation will be a success one ... cant imagine e pain pa's undergoing ... haix !
Realli in no mood to study for today paper ... overslept and rushing to school by cab ... taking e paper ... i cant do it ... predicted to fail ... went straight back home ... ma gave me a ride back ... will be meeting Jentson later passing him some stuff ... and off to gym wid my prettie pie ... wasnt in a good mood today ...
had a tiff wid Jie early in the morning ... the snobbishness and unreasonable side of her just screw mi up ... turning me off ... wanted to argue back ... but found out that i'm drained out of energy ... cant even force my eyes to open ... been having sleepness night for more than a week ... been busy wid e stuff i dun even know ... damn it!
everyone have the right to scream out all their unhappiness ... to Cling on to their happiness ... and even to amend to their mistake ... so therefore dun try running away wid an unreasonable excuse ... FACE THE REALITY ... eventhought REALITY sometimes hurt ... but it's the fact that we had to face ...
JOKE OF THE DAY !
When american fart ... they will say Excuse Mi !
When France fart ... they will say Pardon Mi !
But when it comes to Singaporean ... we will onli say NOT MI ... !
