PLEASE READ THESE :Y Tuesday, July 25, 2006Y
7:08 PM
EVERYTIME ...
Lately I'm Not Who I Used To Be
Someone's Come And Taken Me
Where I Don't Wanna Go
If I Knew Exactly What I Have To Do
In Order To Be There For You
When You Were Feeling Low
And All The Things We Ever Wanted
Were Once Yours And Mine
Now, I Know We Can Revive It
All The Love We Left
Everytime I Kiss I Feel Your Lips And
Everytime I Cry I See Your Smile And
Everytime I Close My Eyes I Realise That
Everytime I Hold Your Hand In Mine
The Sweetest Thing My Heart Could Ever Find
And I Have Never Felt This Way
Since The Day I Gave Your Love Away
Save Me, I've Fallen From My Destiny
You And I Were Meant To Be
I've Thrown It All Away
Now You're Gone
It's Time For Me To Carry On
But Baby I Just Can't Go On
Without You By My Side
And All The Things We Ever Wanted
Were Once Yours And Mine
Now, I Know We Can Revive It
All The Love We Left
We Can Survive It
All The Pain We Feel Inside
You Relied On Me And Now I've Let You Down
Now, I Promise You Forever
I Will Be The Best I Can
Now, I Know We Can Revive It
All The Love We Left
News of you never stopped since the day u left me ... realising that u had actually quitted school from the mouths of others ... are you having some sorts of difficulties? How i wished i can solve them all for you ... but i had no rights to interfer in ur matter anymore ... finding out that i realli cant cope on without you ... will this feeling of mine fade away as time pass? I'm just not me ever since u are gone ... i need the shelther where u were always there ... e memorises that we once had ... the care and concern we once shared ... the rain is washing it all away ... i can no longer hold on to u ... i had to carry on ...
I'm not me when you are not there ... i hate myself for letting you go ... i cant find someone who will love me more than you do ... the loneliness in me isnt coping well ... you were once my everything ... breaking up doesnt mean that i had fallen for another ... it's just that i'm tired ... the question u once asked me ... when u nag and care for me ... i tend to run away ... finding u fan! regretting it when u had stopped ... we had nv quarrel before all this years ... you had been giving in to me ... and this is what i told u ... " do we look normal ? " why cant we fight n quarrel lyk others ...
Now i noe how u felt years back ... when i put a stopped to everything ... i tot it's the best for both of us ... knowing that what i did was completely a mistake ... i cant turn back ... no more ! that day u hold on to me tight ... but nv did i spare a thought for u ... i shook ur hand away ... eyes staring ... u were almost to tears ... knowing how heartless i am then ... i had no reason to beg for ur return ...
Will you regret giving up ur studies? hope not ... wish you all the best to u and ur galfriend ... it's time for me to stop ... i cant pursue on anymore ... i may be thinking too much ... but tell u this ... u are realli somebodi ... onli u can bring me to tears when others mention u ... i just cant shake ur shadow off me ... the day when i shook ur hands away ... i knew that there''s no more return for us ... let's put all our sweet memories deep down in our heart ...
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Thanks for teaching me everything ... this phrase i did once said
"Tell me ... Why are we still friends ?"
"when everyone said ... we should be more than we are"
u painted all those colour in my life ... and i'll treasure n cherish what i had once have ... i've longed wish to say all this to you ... but my dignity just stopped me from saying ... I DO LOVE YOU! but it's all too late ...
i must be crazy ... studying too much ... but what i've just revise it's all gone ... i cant concentrate ... what's happening to me ... my life is in a mess ... the mess i had created ... i 'm having tourism test tml ... and my mind is all empty ... i cant stuff in any more words ... it's full of you ... i had nv ever felt this way before ... it's realli a toture that i will nv ever try again ... how i wish that i can wake up tml ... finding that it's all a nightmare that's been hunting me all these while ...
Honestly our destiney had stopped ... i had no choice but to accept ... the greatest story love had ever taught ... love isnt e stangest things to me ... it's all the obsticles that i had to face ... it's the path of growing up ... it lead me to somewhere ... where i had to face alone ... it's all a challenge to success ... i may not be coping all this well ... but who knows what will it be years ahead ... hahas ... rubbish me! ...
a blink i'll be graduating soon ... what kind of life i'll lead? pa have planned all that for me ...will i be able to meet up to pa's expectation? who knows ... haix ... dragging myself to school everyday ... doing repeated stuff ... pressuring myself to do well ... the thoughts n action of mine just dun blend well ... the more i wants to do well ... the worst i will be ...
why must one be acting weak when the fact that they can actually be strong ... it's a burden to be having a secrets that cant be shared ... it takes time to know a person true colour ... a mask isnt a weapon it's a tools to make urself looks uglier ... personality changes ... question marks all appearing above my head ... just dunno what i'm toking abt ... i'm definitelyt crazy ...
Craziness in me is beyond my imagination ... i can be laughing my lungs out now and crying lyk hell mins ltr ... is this depression? hahas ... how i wish there's an imaginery friend ... hahas boo oo oo off to continue wid my revision ...
