... Running in a Maze ...

I'm running in a maze ... searching for an exist! I just cant find my way out ... i dun wanna walk the maze alone ... i'm walking blindly in it ... you seems to be turning ur heads off me ... looking at the way you walk away ... i cant find any reasons to beg for ur return ... i'm just not confident! Why am i still clinging on ... things have already gone this far ... i knew tat it's realli impossible to be returning back past ... why must i be forcing myself putting on a strong front infront of you ... smiling, and wid the smile of mine pretending that none of this had ever happened before ... The nightmare of you ... just made me waking up wid tears on my cheeks ... i realli cried my heart out that night ... I'm a cry baby! crying made me so tired ... cant even concentrate for my lesson tat day .... my mind's going wild! ARGH!

I dun wanna face all this alone ... i'm accepting the facts that i dun wanna accept ... i'm left wid no choice ... you left mi wid a NO ... what more can i say? i'm starting to accept it ... i'm lying my hands off ... but the feeling suxs! silent for my past! u let me feel so un-needed ... i felt utterly un appreciate ... i wanna mend this relationship ... i meant it ... but it's all down the drain ... it takes two hand to clap ... but i seems to be clapping in e air, i cant hear any sound from it ... why must i be treated so cruelly ? i wanna bitch out all the stuff here! i'm tired ...

I have to stop some activities ... my bone is starting to feel the heat ... Ma insisted that it's cuz by over-exercise ... but it's not ... anyway, I HATE MILK! dun wanna drink it ... forcing it down my throat made me wanna PUKE! Went to bugis wid Kevin last saturday ... bump into Fer there ... but wid the guy beside, i avoided the social manner of a HI! dun wan ppl to know abt my outing wid him ... it's a fast trip ... didnt hold onto him at all ... i hold tightly at the back seats of his bike ... i'm realli feeling nthing towards him ... he just cant make my heart pump doublely fast juz for him ... just friends is all i could say ...

went to 2nd aunty house yesterday ... was experated walking under such a weather, the sun seems so happily smiling ... i can feel the heat manx! making my way there ... it's been since awhile after my last visit ... bump into 1st aunty there ... she's been bragging abt her son ... what's the big deal of graduating from a JC? can you stop comparing ... do i have to listen to all ur bragging? i know the different between certificate ... i regreted going there ... she tarnish all my confident ... i took so long to accept ITE ... wid just a word i'm tinking ... maybe " IT"S THE END" !

I realli had enough yesterday ... lucky Grace was wid me ...thanks yea ... reaching home ... ending my night earli ... as i'm too drained off ... why issit rountine of my life seems so tough?