PLEASE READ THESE :Y Thursday, August 17, 2006Y
10:16 PM
... Getting up my NERVE ...
Why is things turning out this way ... it's realli not what i had wanted ... the one i need is always not there ... but there's always those one getting up my nerve ... annoyed by that ... i did make things clear to you before ... but ur so call "suprise turn-up" just isnt what i wanted! You are realli over-doing stuff that seems un-needed ... having fear for you now ... sicked of it ... please stop!
memory dun last ... memory of you just slipped off me ... i will soon get rid of ur features, shadows and the least part of you ... i'm realli coping well now ... the satisfactin in me are realli beyond words that i could use ...
Been busy wid the report stuff lately, realizing that my life seems so smooth ever since i graduated from secondary ... there's always time for me to do many stuff ... spending money like water ... ahjia used the word "salty people" on me ... kindly translate it in mandrine ...
attended the "BGR" talk on tuesday ... seems interesting ... knowing that there's actually so call of zone for a relationship ... safety, danger and also the diaster zone ... curiousity made student participate ... it's unavoidable for topic like this being mentioned ... everyone seems so interested in the word SEX! just this 3 letter making everyone crazy over it ... OMG!
arriving for lesson in polo tee, shorts and slipper ... naturally got nagged by ang ... had been missing ang lesson for as long as i could remember 2weeks ... i'm realli lacking out ... could not catch up wid the given assignment today ... tat's e cosequses of pom-tening ... have to BACKUP!
have been lacking my precious sleep for the week ... heard from Luca tat ... Hafiz will be organizing a sec gathering ... i'm definitely not turing up for that ... just hate to see faces that will make me puke! i may be petty in my way ... and i'm not letting words bother mi anymore ... i dunno how to face the music alone ... i dunno how to reply when others asked abt you ... i'm afraid that you'll bring e HER along on e very day ... i'm juz afraid to weep infront of you ... maybe i'm juz a wimp ... i cant face problem ...
Am i realli putting things aside? or am i still grabbing firmly onto ? god knows then!
went meeting uncle at the airport ... da la ! Got 50 bucks wid mi now ... dinning in at the restaurant ... and maybe a suprise trip to either china or japan ... and off i went after the chat ... that's my day ...
